Internalised Ableism, Week 9: The Little Boy Who Internalised Ableism
chronic pain / Getting support / internalized ableism

Internalised Ableism, Week 9: The Little Boy Who Internalised Ableism

Editor’s note: This is K.W. Ramsey’s debut post with the Spoonie Authors Network. Welcome to the family! Until a couple years ago, I’d never heard the word ableism, never mind examining how I might have internalized it in myself. You see, I was born in the ’70s, when the idea of being disabled was anathema, … Continue reading

Internalised Ableism, Week 8: Ableist in My Mind
chronic pain / internalized ableism / mental health / Spoonie Challenges

Internalised Ableism, Week 8: Ableist in My Mind

So, today, I decided enough was enough—I was doing the dishes. We have a dishwasher, so you would think it would be a breeze. Unfortunately, my particular injury makes bending painful, especially that halfway bend to load something above floor level. Then, in my infinite wisdom, I decided not to stop part-way through for a … Continue reading

Internalized Ableism, Week 7: I’m Not Disabled
chronic pain / Getting support / internalized ableism / mental health / Spoonie Challenges

Internalized Ableism, Week 7: I’m Not Disabled

Most of my health problems have been with me since childhood. I was diagnosed with a learning disability at eight years old. I acquired insomnia, anxiety, depression, and PTSD in my prepubescent years. I developed a repetitive strain injury at fifteen. Yet it was not until last year that I really felt comfortable claiming the … Continue reading

Internalised Ableism, Week 6: One Habit of a Highly Defective Person Who Isn’t Defective
Autism / Body positivity / internalized ableism

Internalised Ableism, Week 6: One Habit of a Highly Defective Person Who Isn’t Defective

One of the more insidious forms of internalized ableism is when we look at others and beat ourselves up for not being able to do what they are doing. What makes it particularly insidious is that it is easy to miss that we are engaging in internalized ableism. What makes it so insidious is that … Continue reading

Internalised Ableism, Week 5: Not Disabled Enough
Cerebral Palsy / Getting support / internalized ableism / Multiple Sclerosis / Uncategorized

Internalised Ableism, Week 5: Not Disabled Enough

I have an issue with appearing weak. This all started when I was born with spastic cerebral palsy. I was raised to believe that I would have to learn to do things for myself. I was raised not to be a quitter and to move forward, despite the pain that I might be in. It … Continue reading

Internalized Ableism, Week 4: Solution to Being a Terrible Patient, or, How I Learned It’s Okay to Need Help
Getting support / internalized ableism / Spoonie Challenges

Internalized Ableism, Week 4: Solution to Being a Terrible Patient, or, How I Learned It’s Okay to Need Help

I had surgery recently on my foot to remove a bone chip and arthritis bone spurs. The pain in my foot wasn’t terrible but it had changed my gait, adding to the workload in my lower spine and making one hip pop out of joint daily. I have arthritis and degenerative disc disease, so I … Continue reading

Internalized Ableism, Week 1: I’m Too Young for a Mobility Device
Accessibility / chronic pain / Fibromyalgia / internalized ableism

Internalized Ableism, Week 1: I’m Too Young for a Mobility Device

Welcome to our first series of 2020: Internalized Ableism. In the upcoming weeks, a SpAN contributor will share about how ingesting ableist narratives has affected their life. So, a general content note about this series is that it includes themes of internalized and externalized ableism. For decades, I’ve managed some type of chronic pain. I … Continue reading